Saturday, July 10, 2010
A Journey is Presented
On Thursday, July 8, 2010; we learned our unborn baby had severe levels of fluid on her brain. We were shuffled to a cold and quiet room where we sat in silence waiting for the doctor to come and talk with us. It was too quiet, too cold, and too empty. We sat in shock and just waited. When the doctor came in he began to describe what this means to our baby and to us and tried to answer the questions we worked hard to get out. For our baby and for our family, this will be a waiting game. Waiting and watching her development, watching the fluid, waiting, and more watching. No questions are answered right now. This has been the toughest part for us. When we sit and talk after Isaac and Hadleigh go to bed, we really don't know where to begin. There are a million different outcomes we could have, how do you prepare for each and every one not knowing which will be ours? I can tell you the only thing that is helping us is to cling to the fact that God already knows. He knows the outcome and this baby's future. It is something that our energy cannot be spent on right now-the wondering about the "what-ifs". God doesn't want us to worry about that part today, we have to trust Him to hold all of that in His hands. We are praying for a miracle, praying fervently that God heals our baby girl completely. The two of us believe way more in the power of God than we do in the power of science, man, and technology. And we know He hears our prayers and that He answers prayers of his people. If it is His will, we pray He heals her-completely. Above all, we pray that our beautiful daughter and our family journey can be used in ways we can't even imagine to glorify God, inspire others, and change lives.